Subject: No, no, no meds,.... Cookie Bee.... Time to take charge of your life
Screw meds!
Screw counseling!
You did the right thing!
From your description of school, I can tell that you were at the point of no return - I could just feel it through the computer screen, vibing through the very pixels of the type. I know this feeling all too well, and if your parents have a grain of sense, then (if you tell them this), then they should be compassionate.
When you get to this point, no amount of encouragement can get you back into school. THE DESIRE TO ATTEND COLLEGE ABSOLUTELY HAS TO RADIATE FROM YOU. You cannot be a mere puppet of other people's expectations. You've got to get into some sort of constructive, self-supporting routine. The med route is just another crutch.
Walk.....walk.....walk into the woods, grasshoppa, ......... walk daily..... find a yoga studio.......get in touch with your body...... get the F*** out of bed, .... cut down on your T.V. time ..... change locations if that's an option....... take a break from yourself ....... get a job in a restaurant to earn some money------ meet the freaks there; take it in; it's great material----- work on an oil rig, on a farm, ..... don't take up smoking (or ... time to QUIT, if you already smoke).
This is a wake up call. HELLO,.... anybody home?
You have a nice manner in your honest writing here in the cafe' - a very nice resonance indeed - you express yourself well in the written word - THAT's a plus too.
Keep us in tune, since you are an excellent bug under the microscope for us to watch, as you dissect your brain, and splay your guts for all the world to see.
You see, content people love this sort of thing. They've forgotten what it's like to really be in the throws of self-growth, self-discovery, self-re-invention.
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