Okay, I'm not going to let the stress monster get on my back. Grrr - Get off!
It's amazing what you can get thrown at you at times. It's all working out well. This afternoon I might have told you differently. I'm used to this and I hate to say it's when I'm at my most creative. Most creative, but I must say not my very best. I suppose it comes later in life when an ability and attention to craft can come simultaneously with inspiration and happy accidents. On the one hand I could have waited for the next day to buy more spackle. On the other, I crossed over the learning bridge and got the painting well on it's way. I suppose it doesn't bother me, but I would like to have more control over the textures.
I'm really tired and stressed over the whole webmaster ordeal. Sounds as if all involved are getting that way. Problem is that it's alot of work yet to be done before it gets right. I don't know how much of this computer stuff I want to deal with anymore. I do sit with this thing a major portion of my day. Could I make the same amount of money - $1000 - in some other way without the added responsibility? It was different when it was $1500. But, it's true, some months I would have very little to do. It is what you make it and somehow just a short while after I got a pay drop I decided to make it into something worthwhile. I'm wondering with the redesign - the creative part - significantly wrapped up, I rebel from the urlygurgly task of databases and monotonous tasks that any joe could do. Can I hire someone for just a little while? Would it be more work to find someone reliable and skilled than to just grin and bearit? I tell you you've spoke about it to yourself and others before. Why not just put an ad in a paper. How much are you talking? 2 hours of work a week? Would someone even volunteer? An intern? Am I constant enough in any degree to have someone? Give yourself a break because you have been getting up by 7:45 every day and working out. You have been going to an animation job -- very cool -- for 12 hours a week. You are preparing for a major rung in your painter's ladder at the Laguna exhibit. You are preparing for a show on congress ave involving multiple artists and out of town traffic in less than two weeks. You are handling a major system outage as a webmaster of a community site hosting over 350 sites and linking to over 1100 websites. You are helping your dad- working for your dad on his big teaching finale project CD rom and Website. You are being good to your wife. You are keeping the house clean. You fixed the sink.
What the hell have you got to be stressed about. You just need more hours in the day. Live life till you die.
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